Going Home

I've decided to go home this weekend. College is just getting stressful and dealing with people is too. I love everyone, just need a break. Plus, it will be good to see my Grandpa and everyone else and start getting stuff ready for Daytona. So no updates for the weekend. More on Monday!

A Huge Entry

I'm very confused as of now for several reasons. First of all, my Grandpa has cancer and has surgery tomorrow morning. I guess I knew it was always a possiblility from all of the chemicals that were used in the war, but it still sucks. There are tons of people lifting him up to God in prayer.... so I know that God's will will shine through, but I feel bad, because, for my own selfish reasons, I want my grandfather to know my children...and yet that's going to be so far down the road. I know that I need to trust that God will do the right thing, but it is still very hard.
Second of all, my art project is going through a setback called.... "the beads won't stay on the snake" Unless you've seen my project that won't make any sense to you, but it's frustrating. Oh well..time for artistic engenuity. (yeah..that's probably spelled wrong)
Third, I feel that certain friends of mine...who I thought really like me and considered me a good friend have stopped confiding in me and have stopped wanting to hang out with me. I'm not sure if I just make a bad friend or if it is because i'm "No fun" because I don't want to drink. I really don't know. I'm trying to hang out with Darren less...but when the girls won't hang out with me ... and I hate being alone...it's hard not to. I dunno what to do. If your reading this if you could pray for God to show me the way and comfort my heart.
Speaking of God, He is still being faithful and bringing in much needed support for my Daytona trip. I still have quite a bit more to raise and time is running low...but I know God will be faithful beyond my belief. Amen to that!
I have been pretty productive lately...especially yesterday. Not so much today, but definitly yesterday so I deserve a break right?
Tomorrow Mom is coming up in the AM. So I need to wake up early. I still have to figure out a class to take next semester because I schedule tomorrow. So tomorrow will be a busy day, but fun at the same time. It will be good having family up here... I need family right now. I'm going to miss them while I'm gone all summer... wow... but I know GOD will build "new" family-like relationships through the people at Daytona.
Also...exciting news! Heather and I are going to try our best to have a "Chicks day' this weekend and go see "The Prince and Me" together... I'm really looking forward to that!
Well I should go try to figure out that class. God Bless

I am convinced that I will make tonight a productive night. I am going to work on my English and Art Homework! Now if only I could stop procrastination. I also have to return videos tonight. Oh boy. Anyways. I suppose I should go. I opened this planning to write a lot, but I need to get going while I feel the slightest bit of motivation! Later Gators!

I'm trying to get my dad to come up and visit me... we'll see how that works out. Today has been a pretty good day. Art class was fun because I got to play with clay and plaster. I'm going to work on my snake now for my installation project. I just had my quiet time and I just want to say that it is amazing that God can speak to people in so many different ways. I also have to say that God has been faithful and true. Michelle told me today that many more support checks have come in... God Bless people who have given to my ministry! I'm amazed and in awe. God is so faithful and true. I am so excited for Daytona Beach...now I just have to book my flight!

I can't believe that I forgot to type in here my bestest news! I got a CA position! How cool is that. I get my own room in Hansen next year! I'm psyched.
I also am very excited that Daytona Beach is coming up so quickly! I can't believe it...and I'm so excited. Well I have to get some cleaning done...hopefully before Becky gets here for D-Time. Laters!

Well well...there are actually people who read this! I got a comment yelling at me to update this... now who could that be? Anyway... On to the last stretch of school. I just took a test in Art 283 and I think it went okay.... not spectacular...but okay. My support is still trickling in... God is truely using people in amazing ways. I just hope and pray that the rest comes in.
Speaking of money, the bank still hasn't refunded my 400 dollar theft situation, so that has me a little tense.... prayers welcome!
Well I'm off to do some philosophy then a walmart trip! GOD BLESS!

God is so amazing. I just finished reading Chapter 8 of Faith Is Not A Feelingand I'm just amazed. God provides in so many awesome ways, even when we have no fathomable way of knowing that He can. Amen to that~
Today was another beautiful day! I've been able to talk to a lot of people through AOL IM that I am going to Daytona Beach with (in 47 days). They all seem so incredible nice and just as excited as I am. This summer is going to be unbelievable. I'm really praying for the rest of my support to come in. I have raised about $1600 already, but there is still much more to go. However, I know that God will provide and be faithful. Just like God provided for Ney in her times of disbelief in the book, He will provide for all those who trust in Him.
I've been pretty productive today! I super cleaned my room and packed up my winter clothes. My room seems much more spacious now that I have a open closet now! I even did all of my laundry, including the sheets! WOW!
Now, unfortunalty, it is time to do homework and such until Bible Study. Also it's Darren's Birthday today... so Happy 21st Birthday hun if your reading this!!

Support Raising seems to be going great! I have many responses from people who say they will support me! God works through the most unexpectable people though!
Today I am going in to work to help a girl out who just needs a break.... My biggest debate is whether to walk there or drive...but I'm leaning towards the walking concept! YEAH!!! hehe.
Well leave me a comment! Love ya All!

Well. Today is another beautiful day, the sun is shining the wind has ceased and I WENT DOWNHILL SKIING! now I know that sounds hard to believe, but it was wonderful for my first time out! Jen (the girl I went with) even took pictures so I have proof! She was so much fun to hang out with!
Today I have CA group processing. I'm pretty nervous, but I just gotta be the great person God made me. I could use some prayers on inner strength right now so if anyone is prayin to the Jesus mention me please!=). Well gots to go write some support letters, shower and then off to group process! Laters!

Today is awesome! The sun is shinning SO BRIGHT and it's a beautiful day! (Gosh everytime I think that phrase I think of ninja hitting Darren off the bridge... ha ha long story). I have discipleship soon then I think I'm gonna go tanning and then I have to...sadly... hit the books... or rather the art projects! GROSS! Oh well... I like doing them I just am struggling with how to put them together right now. Oh well. I have to clean a bit too... SPRING CLEANING! haha. My Sassy newt tried to get out of my tank today and now he's climbing all over my frogs. Silly creatures. WEll... I suppose that's about it today! PRAYER REQUEST: that God keeps providing financial and spiritual help towards my Daytona Beach Project.

Well. Things are going good and bad. I got an awesome support check for Daytona Beach that left very little doubt that this is where God wants me to be this summer. However, I've had $400 stolen out of my checking account so that is a huge mess. I'm very behind in homework so I have limited my hours to 5 a week at family video. I got some stuff caught up tonight so far, but there is still a lot to do. If you are reading this please say a prayer for me!
God Bless you all!

I have been working crazy hours thus far on Spring Break. I'm barely able to talk to my boyfriend and I have very little time to even finish my support letters, Although tonight I have made great strides on them. I believe I'm going to finish this batch and then head off to bed because Kari, good ole friend, is coming to wake me up bright and early tommorrow so that we can wash our cars and go shopping all before my glorious 1-9 shift at Family Video. Gosh I hope it's slow and I can come home early! I just need to relax... grr.
Anyway, Today was a good day. I slept wonderfully, finished my laundry, got to pick up stamps and envelopes and even got over to the bank to cash checks and change addresses. YIPPEE...then mikey took me out for a CRAB Dinner...wow. Amazingly good! And I even have left overs for tomorrow. Then I went to work from 6-close... and Got to work with Amy so that was nifty! Tomorrow Greg comes in so I have to make sure to be nice and rested! hehe. Well gots to go! Love everyone lots and God Bless!

God is so Holy and so GLORIOUS! AMEN! My testimony morphed so much from what I had written on my sheet....God totally moved me and totally comforted me in my moments of complete nervousness. AMEN!
"For the praises of man, I will never ever stand,
For the kingdom of this world I'll never give my heart away
Or shout my praise,
My allegiance and devotion,
My hearts desire and all emotion
Go to praise the man who died upon that tree"
JESUS LOVES YOU AND ME! ASK ME IF YOU QUESTION THAT STATEMENT ...Because I'LL TELL YOU WHY and HOW it's true! Amen to that sister!

Today is the last day before spring break! The final stretch! I was so lazy today! But I'm up now! We just made a huge dinner of eggs, toast, hashbrowns and cookies! IT was so yummy! Seth, Laura, Darren and Derek and I had such a great conversation!
I'm about to give my testimony at CRU (weekly youth group meeting). NERVOUS NELLY! but God will pull me through!
Well time to go. More later!

I woke up an hour early for class! Weird things are happinging my friend! Today is declared homework day after my physical assessment for Healthy American. That means only one hour of slacking! Grrr. Anyways. I work tomorrow night now too.. I guess there was some shifts in management (again) at Family Video, but oh well... I get more hours and no one I love to work with is leaving! (Yea Jess for staying!). I also did all of the closing stuff by myself last night and Pam said I did really good and she'll tell Lexi, so hopefully I'll get a key Tuesday or Wednesday! I'm feeling a lot more confident lately with closing so that's awesome! I have to do a project for art class with paper and tape for tomorrow..not too excited about it, but it'll work!
Well, just waiting for a phone call and that's about it! Have a good day!

Yesterday I hardcore worked out and today I'm hardcore sore! I'm loving it! Already 5 lbs down. Weird...part of the weight from the first day must have been water weight or something coz that's a lot to lose! Anyway, last night Darren and I went out to Perkin's and then BOWLING! He did really good and tied me the first game with a 169, the second game now so much...but he did break 100! My bowling bag zipper broke so now I'll have to get a new one...but I just find a cheap one at Kmart b/c I dont' use it that much!
I got some good groceries yesterday too... I'm getting better at the eating healthy thing! I'm lovin' it! hehe. Well that's all for now! Later Gators!

Darkness

Today is a weird day for me. I'm not sure why. I'm just cranky! It's weird. I think I just feel lonely because my friends are out of town and I don't have much to do surprisingly. I've just been sitting in my room watching movies with the blinds drawn. I'm not sure why. I just don't have the ambition to do much today. I think I'm going to go force myself to work out. Maybe I've lost weight, that would be an encouragement of this dumb eating healthy thing. At least I'll get my blood flowing and maybe I'll find my motivation for the day. I'm going to bring my new book "Every Woman's Battle" with me to work out. It might help me not concentrate on working out so I'll do it longer. Who knows. Kinda like time with God pushing myself to the limit. I dunno. Well .... I've convinced myself. I'm off to work out!

IT WAS A VERY LONG DAY AT WORK! Grrrr... but I sold a lot of D cards so that's extra money! Tomorrow Darren says he's gonna surprise me for our date so that should be interesting! Well I'm off to bed! To bed I said! Night NIght

Well. Today is a great day so far. The sun is shinning and I woke up for class on time. I even got 3 packages in the mail...of course it was all stuff I ordered..but It's still pretty cool! I talked with my friend Josh a lot yesterday over AIM. He's pretty funny. He might be coming up this weekend, so hopefully I'll get to see him.
Today I have to work 4:30 to close. Those are long shifts on a Friday night, because everyone and their brother seems to watch movies on Fridays! Crazy if you ask me!
Well... I'm going to do some chillaxin' as Laura calls it! My room is SO CLEAN!! yeah!~
Well Peace Out! And GOD BLESS!

Wheew! Well then. I finished my preparation for my philosophy test. It went pretty well. But how hard can a test be when you get to use a whole page of note? Honestly. My frogs are very active right now. I think it's because I actually remembered to feed them. I'm going to watch Harry Potter now while I clean my messy room. Yup that's right. Clean! Wow.... I think I'm changing for the better day by day! haha. Well I'm off to clean! L8rs!