Boredom

Wow...today I left Hansen hall for the first time since Friday at noon. That was pretty intense. Haha. I got my books, ate real food... did the college thing. I'm getting older...but I know I'm still incredibly young. Just to think...people get married at 19 and 20... hmm...I'm thinking for sure now that I need to be OUT OF SCHOOL... so that puts me at least at 22. Which is kinda a good time... I mean..yea i know it's cool to be on your own and all..but really like what if you get a job then meet someone and move... then you have to find a new job...why not just find a job where your going to be living..ya know? Well ...at least I have 3 years to worry about that.... actually no... 3 years to let go and let GOD. He's so much bigger than my little plans for my little life.
So I'm throughly convinced that no one reads this. Except for Shua...he read it and got mad at me and now never wants to talk to me... so I guess one person did. If your reading this you should leave a comment or something so I think someone is reading this. But at the same time..I'm okay with no one reading it because it's really more for me anyway... documenting my life through college.... it will be fun to look back on.
My computer is being dumb.. I have to fix it. Darren has to put in a new sound card.... dumb.
Speaking of Darren...we saw each other again...all went well... we will be friends and there's not a ton of akwardness.
I should go hop in the shower now... I'm telling you..I think I just shower when I'm bored..but at least I stay clean!
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CA Training

Well, I'm into my 6th day of CA Training. So far it's okay... There is definitly some boring parts...but I can deal with that. The hall government is officially here. It vies me some sense of how the hall will be. I'm a little intimidated, but I know I just have to be myself and go from there. Matt recieved really exciting news that he could get into flying for Delta... which would allow him to come visit whenever and maybe even giving me a companion pass... it would definitly make things fun and easy... so it's something in my prayers that if it is God's plan for him that it works out. Inevitably, I know that God will make His plans work out no matter what we do.
I'm pretty tierd at this moment. I am excited to start to settle into a routine within the next few weeks...but it's fun to never quite know wha will come next. =) Well... I suppose I'm going to go for now..maybe organize my room a little bit more! Laters. Leave a comment!

Oh My!

Wow.. Life really is crazy! CA training is going good. The girls rock and so do the guys in my hall.. it makes me happy! Also... it's official! Matt is coming up September 29th through October 4th... yea!!! I also just checked prices for my crazy travel plans in January and it looks like it will only cost 500 dollars... and Matt is paying for 1/2 that! WAY COOL!!! So prayers that prices stay low enough to afford!
Tonight I'm going to hang up my surfing posters...make my room complete! Although I already love my room and feel like I'm finally home! YEA!! WEll.. time to go! Love you all!

Well, only 2 more days until the big move into college for my 2nd year. This year is going to be different no doubt. Being a CA (RA) will definitly be challenging at times, but I know that if I rely on GOD for my decisions and patience HE will provide. My life has been going wonderful lately...
*Grandpa's cancer is in remission! (yeah GOD)
*Matt and I have started a relationship as of Aug 14th and I'm learning to cope with the long distance thing
*I get to move back into school (and have my own room)
*I'm adjusting to not finding the ocean in WISCONSIN with fond hopes that I will move to a coast later in life!
Now if only I could find helpers to help my dad and I move me into college there would be no worries.... I know we can do it, i'm just concerned about dad's back. If anyone reading this wants to help lemme know.
Well I suppose it's getting to be bedtime now... no big plans for tomorrow (tear) but I'm sure I'll find something!
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Confusion

Why can everything be so confusing? And why don't I ever have patience. I couldn't wait to get home from Daytona to be home and now all I want to do is either go back or go to school. I'm so antsy. Maybe a big part of it is that I have no job for these 9 days and it's driving me nuts...but it's not like I don't have other things to get done... i just enjoy putting them off I guess. I don't know... the worst part is I'm afraid i'm going to get to school and then be antsy for something else. I need to learn to live in this moment and be thankful for THIS moment. I feel so back and forth right now. I know some would say i'm being "attacked" since I'm back home..but i feel like I'm attacking myself...i'm beating myself up and I just wont stop. Talk about annoying.
Also my sound on my computer is not working. I've checked cables, mutes ect...and I can't get it to work...or my front USB ports...since Darren couldn't figure out Dell's motherboard now i'm without those too...and now without Darren to fix stuff that I have no idea where things are in my computer...GRRR....
What i need to do right now is go pray and spend time with the awesome God i live to serve.... and realize that none of this life is about me and surrender it to Him. So since I've came to this conclusion...I think that is exactly what I will do. Good bye!

WOW ....that's all i can say. This summer has been nothing short of amazing. God has taught me so incredibly much about learning to have faith on my own. For all those who are wondering .... Darren and I decided that we were going to pursue things in other directions. We will remain friends.... so not too much awkwardness. God has totally blessed me with a peace and understanding of His plan for my life in that direction. SO much else is going on..but i suppose I can't blow you out of your seat with too much information. Until the 10th when I get home from daytona... trust me ...BIG NEWS... call me if you want to know at this point!