A Huge Entry

I'm very confused as of now for several reasons. First of all, my Grandpa has cancer and has surgery tomorrow morning. I guess I knew it was always a possiblility from all of the chemicals that were used in the war, but it still sucks. There are tons of people lifting him up to God in prayer.... so I know that God's will will shine through, but I feel bad, because, for my own selfish reasons, I want my grandfather to know my children...and yet that's going to be so far down the road. I know that I need to trust that God will do the right thing, but it is still very hard.
Second of all, my art project is going through a setback called.... "the beads won't stay on the snake" Unless you've seen my project that won't make any sense to you, but it's frustrating. Oh well..time for artistic engenuity. (yeah..that's probably spelled wrong)
Third, I feel that certain friends of mine...who I thought really like me and considered me a good friend have stopped confiding in me and have stopped wanting to hang out with me. I'm not sure if I just make a bad friend or if it is because i'm "No fun" because I don't want to drink. I really don't know. I'm trying to hang out with Darren less...but when the girls won't hang out with me ... and I hate being alone...it's hard not to. I dunno what to do. If your reading this if you could pray for God to show me the way and comfort my heart.
Speaking of God, He is still being faithful and bringing in much needed support for my Daytona trip. I still have quite a bit more to raise and time is running low...but I know God will be faithful beyond my belief. Amen to that!
I have been pretty productive lately...especially yesterday. Not so much today, but definitly yesterday so I deserve a break right?
Tomorrow Mom is coming up in the AM. So I need to wake up early. I still have to figure out a class to take next semester because I schedule tomorrow. So tomorrow will be a busy day, but fun at the same time. It will be good having family up here... I need family right now. I'm going to miss them while I'm gone all summer... wow... but I know GOD will build "new" family-like relationships through the people at Daytona.
Also...exciting news! Heather and I are going to try our best to have a "Chicks day' this weekend and go see "The Prince and Me" together... I'm really looking forward to that!
Well I should go try to figure out that class. God Bless